Meeting Hectic Life!

Living in the higher education level is not as easy as we foresee. More and more and more unpredictable tasks and assignment that one has to finish up. And, of course, doing IB is not easy. In the mid of this second semester, now, I realise that I need to plan my time, so that I am always on the track. Alhamdulillah, I am nearly done my CAS (co-curriculum) as just leave approximately 30 hours for my Action as Service and Creativity have been accomplished. Next task is world literature essay which is absolutely time-consuming as I have to compare two novels which I don’t really understand what the authors want readers to understand, but on the surface the both novels contain Buddhism. Then, I have to be ready with my TOEFL in this April and SAT is waiting me in July. In the same time I am going to take car license since my mother wanna buy a new car for her. After doing the simple physics exercises I have realised that I need to put more effort in order to score for that paper as the simplest questions I still do careless mistake. And for Maths? In my list I have more than 30 questions to be discussed with my lecturer. The worst thing is I have to prepare my English oral presentation and the novel that I will pick is The Outsider by Albert Camus. What it is all about? Existentialism!: a chiefly 20th century philosophical movement embracing diverse doctrines but centering on analysis of individual existence in an unfathomable universe and the plight of the individual who must assume ultimate responsibility for acts of free will without any certain knowledge of what is right or wrong or good or bad. Creepy isn’t? Definitely.

And the uppermost, I have got new motto. Wanna know? Death is getting near! The Outsider does not inspire me but I was enthused by sermon at a mosque. Remember guys, clever people always remember death! :P


I confess that I fell vehemently remorseful to what I have done. But, is it wrong to rebuke my brother for this own good? Is it wrong?

After pondering deeply, I did email him, commenting his doings, which i felt tremendously uneasy, though people might say it is nothing, yet the action did anger me. The email that I send reflected my rage which empowered me thoroughly.

And, of course, as teens, they don't want to be scolded, berated, admonished, etc....... for what ever reasons. I think this is my fault for not understand them.

Now, I realise that I was wrong for being too harsh, brusque, cynical, irritating, annoying, scornful, etc...... to him. I was defeated by my red alarming rage! Supposedly, I shouldn't hurt his feeling. Does it mean I am a cruel, boisterous? And am I wrong to scold him once?

Not Assiduous?

Hmmmph…. It has been few days that I am out of mood to wake up early to go to school. I really don’t know why. That’s one problem, and the other is I am no more able to stay up night until 11 pm! When the clock strikes at 10, definitely, my eyes are already heavy. I, then, sleep, hopefully that I can wake up early in the morning to study; I do wake up but 10 minutes after struggling to open my eyes to read few lines, for sure, I turn blank – falling asleep! I am not assiduous anymore! The spirit that I have start to abetting! Ooo friends! Give me support to ameliorate my enthusiasm! May be I just miss our happy days in KISAS.