Dedication

CONGRATULATION to all 2009 SPM candidates as all of you did better than 2008 candidates. For those who passed with flying colours you have just embarked on new journeys and those who did not acquire as what they hoped this is not the end. ‘Tawakkal’ to Allah. This is what He decided to us. This year 8 students got all a’s +. And a special congratulation is to Fakrul Radzi who defeated Oscar winner today since all reporters were after for him. He got 8 a’s + and 3 a’s . But, find out yourself in newspaper why he was such an artist!

And thank Yati for you camera :) .

Although my brother in Kuantan just got 2 a’s, for me that’s good enough. As he got far more than his what he attemped. And I believe that he has potential to excel in future if he works harder since he is clever but just lazy.

In the morning, suddenly, my instinct said that Akif got one B. I didn't know why. But which Akif? I tried to deny it but I couldn't. ' Don't think as that bad if u r a still angry with him,' I pacified myself. To forget it, I chatted with others. What can I say that's a fact. Although Qutham and Akif just got 10 a's, I am still proud of them. That's all rezeki. And Aiman Halid this is not the end ok! Your future is still bright! And Radhi, thax for the sms. :)

From the event I learnt one important thing that I have always told people but I think I don’t really practise it. I advised my juniors to tawakkal for their results and I experienced 2 important incidents within these 2 days that really challenged my tawakkal.

I believe that all of you know how crucial it is a handphone. Yesterday’s night, I went to i-City as people say that it is really beautiful . Yes. Undeniable. It is damp beautiful! It is like town of light. All trees are made up of lights from different vibrant colours from your left to right. When I was too absorbed by the lights, suddenly, I dropped my phone in the middle of the town after walking about an hour. The worst was I realised it after walking to car to return home. I was tremendously out of idea what should I do, and I didn’t know where should I begin to find the phone. I said to myself, ‘ Tawakkal. If the phone is meant for me, I will get it back or get a new one’. I called my phone and Alhamdulillah somebody found it and return it to me.

The second was at my school (not KISAS ok). I took all trouble to get a camera to KISAS and to go to KISAS. Alhamdulillah, everything was perfect until I returned to school. I transferred all the pictures, and it was perfectly done! So, I deleted the pictures from my memory card permanently. As, I rechecked the folder where I transferred my pictures at KISAS my lecturer had run into class as he was late, then I realized that I deleted all the pictures in the SPM announcement ceremony. I looked at the recycle bin but it was empty! OMG!!!! I nearly dropped my tears. The great sadness engulfed me. All the pictures were gone! However, the lecturer was ready at front to teach, so I had no choice except to return to my seat. It was the first time which only my body in the class as I kept thinking what I had done when my lecturer was standing in front of me giving his lecture. I lost all the pictures which all people want it! But I said, it is ok. ‘bukan rezeki. Nak buat macam mana. Tawakkal le kala ade kat folder mane2 ade letu.’ Before leaving our class, the lecturer gave us an assignment, but , then, I quickly ran back to see my pictures. I checked it again. No pictures were in my thumbdrive. BUT! OMG! I checked the wrong file! Alhamdulillah, there pictures were safe.

And guys, I will upload the pictures at school as soon as possible. Hv tones of works to be done. Be patient ok :P .

I think I don’t have to ask as everyone understands what it means. Implicitly it means you are DUMB! But, what will you feel if your friend say “ u dummy ” or in other words, ‘You are DUMB!’ after showing your stupidity in spelling a word. And the friend is him who you respect the most, he is who you don’t feel comfortable with his attitude but you defend him when people disparage his attitude (sometimes), an the worst thing is after you politely express your uneasiness him but he does seek for apology, or he even does not obliterate of what he has done? Ask yourself! Is this a friend?

Give me space to reflect on it too.


But I still say that he is an ilk of friends. Although I do feel vehemently aggravated of his words, patience plays ‘his’ role here. If I want to disseminate his blaspheme, so that his blaspheme will degrade himself, I can do it facilely. But I have told you, patience plays ‘his’ role here. He is still my friend :P

(*I believe he must be be saying (now): “U dummy”. I never thought you are my friend.)

Aaah...(sigh) Very tired as I just have returned from KISAS to enroll my sister there, and she is my next generation in KISAS. Euphoric - that was what I felt when being there. I did miss KISAS very much and I do believe that you are as well! I met G-man, Asroy, Musyid, and Farid and they are all KPs (who i felt doubtios of thier qualification.. lol). The best part was I got a chance to meet, chat, and share my epxerience with them and some of the teachers. My juniors also shared something with me. One of Khadilians said Khalidians have planed something for juniors so that they can be moulded holistically. It sounds great but I dont know what is it. It is ok as I will always visit KISAS and I can catch up the latest news there. Anyway, my sister is a Thariqian. I didn't ask help of Ustaz Zainal to list her name in Khalid as she deserves to start herlife here by her own way. Let she get her chance! Besides, brothers' of some of our 'batch' also got to study here as Farid's and Fadhil's. Others' I forgot. Sorry.

I confess that I fell vehemently remorseful to what I have done. But, is it wrong to rebuke my brother for this own good? Is it wrong?

After pondering deeply, I did email him, commenting his doings, which i felt tremendously uneasy, though people might say it is nothing, yet the action did anger me. The email that I send reflected my rage which empowered me thoroughly.

And, of course, as teens, they don't want to be scolded, berated, admonished, etc....... for what ever reasons. I think this is my fault for not understand them.

Now, I realise that I was wrong for being too harsh, brusque, cynical, irritating, annoying, scornful, etc...... to him. I was defeated by my red alarming rage! Supposedly, I shouldn't hurt his feeling. Does it mean I am a cruel, boisterous? And am I wrong to scold him once?

Hmmmph…. It has been few days that I am out of mood to wake up early to go to school. I really don’t know why. That’s one problem, and the other is I am no more able to stay up night until 11 pm! When the clock strikes at 10, definitely, my eyes are already heavy. I, then, sleep, hopefully that I can wake up early in the morning to study; I do wake up but 10 minutes after struggling to open my eyes to read few lines, for sure, I turn blank – falling asleep! I am not assiduous anymore! The spirit that I have start to abetting! Ooo friends! Give me support to ameliorate my enthusiasm! May be I just miss our happy days in KISAS.

It is not too early or too late to express my 'congrate' to all friends and brothers who have just complemented thier SPM or nearly done it. You all have victoriously climbed up over the zenith (peak) of the journey and now on the way to climb down for harversting.

During these holidays, I suggest using it wisely. Don't be like me, I did waiste most of my time - sleeping, eating, sleeping.... lol.. Those who can afford to take lisence, it's better now. Those who want to gain experience in working realm, why dont now. To be more optimistic, those who dream to study abroad why dont you all prepare yourselves for the english test which is compulsory. Then, you dont have to struggle too much during ur preparation years!So, prepare yourselves with firm grammar basis. What's the different between 'try doing' this and 'try to do this'? Is there any nuance (difference) ? Yes, but too little.

The uppermost advice is don't forget to pray for your SPM result. All effort you have put and now tawakkal to Allah.
May Allah bless u!